{"id":27549,"date":"2023-05-17T19:02:44","date_gmt":"2023-05-17T19:02:44","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/jenkelchner.com\/?p=27549"},"modified":"2023-06-01T18:24:24","modified_gmt":"2023-06-01T18:24:24","slug":"unmasked-a-girl-has-no-masks","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jenkelchner.com\/unmasked-a-girl-has-no-masks\/","title":{"rendered":"A girl has no masks"},"content":{"rendered":"\t\t<div data-elementor-type=\"wp-post\" data-elementor-id=\"27549\" class=\"elementor elementor-27549\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-08672a9 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default wpr-parallax-no\" data-id=\"08672a9\" data-element_type=\"section\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-aa97972\" data-id=\"aa97972\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-50c58ce elementor-widget elementor-widget-button\" data-id=\"50c58ce\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"button.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-button-wrapper\">\n\t\t\t<a class=\"elementor-button elementor-button-link elementor-size-md\" href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=rLRmJhiXFlo\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<span class=\"elementor-button-content-wrapper\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<span class=\"elementor-button-icon elementor-align-icon-left\">\n\t\t\t\t<i aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"fas fa-headphones-alt\"><\/i>\t\t\t<\/span>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<span class=\"elementor-button-text\">Listen to this post on YouTube<\/span>\n\t\t<\/span>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/a>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-fb4d926 elementor-widget elementor-widget-heading\" data-id=\"fb4d926\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"heading.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<style>\/*! elementor - v3.20.0 - 26-03-2024 *\/\n.elementor-heading-title{padding:0;margin:0;line-height:1}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title[class*=elementor-size-]>a{color:inherit;font-size:inherit;line-height:inherit}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-small{font-size:15px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-medium{font-size:19px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-large{font-size:29px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-xl{font-size:39px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-xxl{font-size:59px}<\/style><h5 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">Listen to blog: 3:40 on YouTube<\/h5>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-1c0e5d4 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default wpr-parallax-no\" data-id=\"1c0e5d4\" data-element_type=\"section\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-928cead\" data-id=\"928cead\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-6bff1f4 elementor-widget elementor-widget-heading\" data-id=\"6bff1f4\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"heading.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<h1 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">Life as I knew it is over<\/h1>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-ebecb15 elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"ebecb15\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<style>\/*! elementor - v3.20.0 - 26-03-2024 *\/\n.elementor-widget-text-editor.elementor-drop-cap-view-stacked .elementor-drop-cap{background-color:#69727d;color:#fff}.elementor-widget-text-editor.elementor-drop-cap-view-framed .elementor-drop-cap{color:#69727d;border:3px solid;background-color:transparent}.elementor-widget-text-editor:not(.elementor-drop-cap-view-default) .elementor-drop-cap{margin-top:8px}.elementor-widget-text-editor:not(.elementor-drop-cap-view-default) .elementor-drop-cap-letter{width:1em;height:1em}.elementor-widget-text-editor .elementor-drop-cap{float:left;text-align:center;line-height:1;font-size:50px}.elementor-widget-text-editor .elementor-drop-cap-letter{display:inline-block}<\/style>\t\t\t\t<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I am about 3 months away from my 50th birthday and I am\u00a0 6 months into a severe burnout episode. Like literally the worst burnout I have ever experienced in my life. In truth, I think I crossed the threshold in February of 2022 and used the final reserves of \u201cpush through\u201d I had available. By November of 2022, I had nothing left. <\/span><\/p><p><strong>2022 was the worst, no joke.<\/strong><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The mounting pressures professionally and personally broke me wide open in early December and I spent most of the next 90 days nonverbal and not leaving my home. My work and relationships fell apart in the most rapid and tower-moment-like way I couldn&#8217;t have anticipated.\u00a0<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">In April, I came to my awareness of masking due to #AuDHD. And, I have nothing left in me for masking or participating in my old world.\u00a0<\/span><\/p><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">My internal battery is at about 2% most days with an occasional burst of 30% before it fails again. I have never\u2026.<em>(louder for those in the back)<\/em>&#8230; have never been incapable of \u201cdoing\u201d and \u201cgoing\u201d. Now, brushing my teeth twice a day or figuring out how and what to eat can be a major struggle.\u00a0<\/span><\/p><h3><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">So, I decided to bring you along on my journey. If you\u2019d like to tag along that is.\u00a0<\/span><\/h3><p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The #neurospicy community on TikTok has been a godsend for me. And so, I\u2019m hoping that by telling my story it will both help me stay accountable to discover my authenticity and to help bring awareness to neurodivergence.\u00a0<\/span><\/p><h3>Filters off, masks down<\/h3><p>I couldn&#8217;t mask right now if I tried.\u00a0 I did have an interaction that required masking recently, <em>and since I couldn&#8217;t find the energy to do so<\/em>, I ended up staring awkwardly at the other person like some nightmarish possessed figure. Fun for everyone is that my filters are gone between my thoughts and my mouth &#8211; <em>full on firehose of stream of consciousness<\/em>. Nothing stays inside and it is like my communicator is stuck on &#8220;<em>must talk out loud with every thought<\/em>&#8220;. And hey, for funsies let&#8217;s create sound effects for literally everything I do. I have been able to retain my &#8220;<em>no foul language<\/em>&#8221; filter when around others &#8211; good for them I suppose.\u00a0<\/p><p>I&#8217;m also not used to having one of the 20 ongoing, looping processing threads in my brain spilling out like I&#8217;m a five-year-old who needs attention with the one random fact they heard an hour ago.\u00a0<\/p><p>So it would be fair to say I&#8217;m very uncertain about how this will all unfold. One thing is for certain, I can no longer pursue &#8220;accomplishment&#8221; and can only focus on my &#8220;experience&#8221;. Debugging that particular program will be a lot of fun.\u00a0<\/p><h3>It is all about me now<\/h3><p>Leaving behind the last twenty plus years of my professional work seems like a cruel joke but on the other hand it is time. Time to care for myself. Time to translate my highly skilled experience into a new pathway forward. One that I enjoy and can be recharged by and make an impact.<\/p><p>For the next bit of time, I will be focusing only on quantum hypnotherapy sessions and a light schedule of coaching. It will allow for me to pair helping others while also creating restful space for my recovery out of burnout. I&#8217;m also excited by this because quantum hypnosis has been my absolute favorite to do for the last three years &#8211; I just didn&#8217;t tell you I was doing it!\u00a0<\/p><p>Feel free to leave comments about your experience if anything resonates with you about ADHD, Autism, late diagnosis or unmasking from conditioning. 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